Men Reading Fashion Magazines by vampyregirl, literature
Literature
Men Reading Fashion Magazines
I started choking on midnight a few days ago.
"MENSONGE À MINUIT"
The dirt you piled into my doorway isn't ready to go down into the ground just yet.
There's unfinished business here, my Love.
And after searching for so long, I have found it!
I discovered the meaning of your life,
and it was hiding in the bottom of a whiskey bottle!
(What an obvious place.)
My six friends are not far behind.
And no one believes the media for this certain trial.
With nothing left to be said-
I have washed my hands of this ordeal.
My Mouth is C R U S H E D by vampyregirl, literature
Literature
My Mouth is C R U S H E D
So this is how it feels to be betrayed?
An acute pain inbetween my eyes?
(Or should it be more like the knocking of a door?)
"Pay no attention to me."
I've been alone for a long time.
Somewhere, you died inside of me and forgot to give me the two-weeks notice.
I wasted life on you, you know.
I wasted breath.
I let myself get carried away in all of the things your heart beat out.
Foolish.
This will be dismissed as nothing more than your moral failure.
I apologize for not telling you this to your face, but it gets to be difficult when you're too much of a coward to pick up the phone.
Does anything feel different now that you're gone
I've missed nights like this.
The cool wind in my hair,
your face against my cheek,
and
US
laying on the ground.
Nothing stopped except for my resentment of petty things.
I was in l o v e .
What happened there?
What happened to the times when I wanted to entwine myself in you and die there?
(I could've been happy forever.)
What did we do wrong?
I don't really think I know.
All I DO know is that I'm tired of being alone.
I just wish that I could erase those harsh words and those blank stares...
Then maybe I could stay there with you again.
The laughing fits when my hair got caught inbetween our mouths when we kissed.
Our han
Keep Turning The Lights Off by vampyregirl, literature
Literature
Keep Turning The Lights Off
Should I? Part of me just wants to erase you from my life. Blot out your name like a rainstorm in July. I want to wash you away. Now, you need to understand that I'm not saying that I hate you.
Quite the opposite, in fact.
I love you. I want to get caught up in you and smell your scent and bury my face in your neck and stay there forever. I wouldn't mind if you crushed me again. (Really, I wouldn't.) Yet there's something inside of me that knows that it isn't a bright idea. Despite the times when I wake up at half past three in the morning, crying because I dreamed of you...I know I need to let you go. (Can I call it letting go if you're th
Oh, please ignore this.
I really never wanted to see you like that.
Did you ever think that this was my GOAL?
To watch you clutch your chest and scratch out your eyes?
Oh, Love...please say it isn't so.
Stop sending me letters,
Stop shooting me looks.
I'm so fucking tired of my time ill-spent.
So let's end this once and for all.
Either you go or stay on for the work.
I can't take another phonecall.
I don't know if you'll be able to stomach the hospital this time.
Can you?
Destroying Tokyo Sounds Nice by vampyregirl, literature
Literature
Destroying Tokyo Sounds Nice
IT'S JUST AMAZING
How much you can forget in a period of weeks.
Not exactly wanting to forget-
(Or do you?)
I doubt you want to pay attention to this anymore.
I feel like dumping paint all over this fucking town
So maybe I can forget about the different emotions
That you keep bitching about
Here's my subtle hint-
I DON'T FUCKING CARE
(Was that good enough for you?)
I'm not exactly intent on making a masterpiece
Because you've filled me up with nothing but shit.
I'm far past being angry-
I'm just praying that I can forgive you someday.
"How can I say I love you back?
You never made me happy."
IT'S MY FUCKING MASTERPIECE
And
Beginning of Mutant Fanfic by vampyregirl, literature
Literature
Beginning of Mutant Fanfic
She lifted her head. There were so many people, too many of them. A girl sauntered over to her. "Melinda. Get out of the corner. Have some fun!" Dolce muttered. She just looked at her. "How am I supposed to have fun with all of these people?!" The room was full of skinny perfect people. All tall, beautiful, and rich. It was their high school graduation party, held at a country club. " I guess that you'll just have to sit here and skulk." Dolce glared at her. Frustrated, she threw her hands up in the air. " Fine. Ok, I give up. I tried." Melinda stood up, and dusted herself off. " I will leave. Good bye to all of you!" With her middle finger
I can't wait.
I can't wait until your smug exterior will fall.
Shatter into a million pieces.
Until you realize you're not so high and mighty.
Not so mighty after all.
Your smirk will break,
Revealing everything.
You're not so high and mighty.
You knew it all along.
I'll just wait here.
Patiently.
Awaiting the joyous day when you realize.
You're frail.
You never were strong.
You never knew it all.
Nothing. Not one single thing.
So spread your lies.
Curse and scream at me.
I won't rebel.
Not until you see.
You're not so mighty after all.
I love you.
It's so hard to say that.
These words get tangled in my throat, and come out hidden in moments and gestures.
Like a car crash.
I don't want you to know.
Oh, God knows I don't.
You'd cry.
You'd scream.
You'd hate me forever.
Yet...strangely enough...
I want you to know.
I want you to curse me.
To claw at my face in hatred.
Yell at me until your throat rebels and bleeds.
Because then you'd notice me.
Because then you'd know I exist here.
Existing only to watch you cry.
My head is aching and my wall is cracked,
I've been trying to give myself brain damage
For the past three nights in a row.
(Maybe then I could forget you.)
I can feel your memory carving lines in my insides
Everytime I turn my back to your broken picture frame;
Moving on has never been easy but this is so damn hard.
Your name is on every page of every notebook I own,
Your picture in the back.
And I hope to God, I pray at night that someday
I'll get over this and understand it;
At this rate, I'll be fine
Around the time I die.
I don't want to live on your memory
Any more than you want to think about me,
But with any luck, amnesi
A lot has happened.
Some of it good:
some of it bad.
I suppose everything is a learning experience, and I should be grateful for every minute of it.
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